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"...Take each day as it comes..."

Su.  Morning workout, 60-minute walk around town.  Clear, cold, with an icy breeze.  I was rugged up head to toe.  I couldn't believe I actually got out there, but I was really putting it hard on myself last night while I organised my clothes and shoes near the bed by the heater and set the alarm.  "I'm getting out there in the morning, like it or not.  No excuses."

I won't lie, I hated the cold and couldn't feel a smidge of warmth until about 40 minutes into it.  I concentrated on the music on my mp3 player (Dirty Vegas' self-titled cd) and, being a dark clear morning, the constellations to keep my mind busy.

But despite the cold, I felt good.  I was out there again.  And I want to take note that the music did help to calm my nerves and shower me with some sense of peace.  I liked this line from "Ghosts":  "All I ever wanted is a place out by the sun, To watch the world go by and take each day as it comes, All I ever wanted was a chance to catch my breath, To see the world go by and lay my ghosts to rest."  Music has done profound things to me my entire life.  Sometimes it can make me or break me. 

There is an album I once loved from the Cocteau Twins back in the '80s called "Victorialand".  I haven't been able to listen to it again since then because it takes me back to the last summer I heard it while a slow and painful death was happening in the family.  I had my husband buy the cd for me recently, hoping I'd gotten over it...but I still haven't been able to listen to it.  :(

Now there's another cd I love but find hard to listen:  Muses' "Resistance".  I listened to it a lot while I was having all those health problems and struggling with issues a few months back.  Listening to it again unfortunately brings in this flood of awful, desparate feelings of illness and despair.  I know that sounds over-the-top and dramatic, but that IS how it felt.  I guess I'll have to take care to only listen to that cd when it's warm and sunny out, and when I'm feeling invincible.

I want to avoid having this happen again, when music can take me to a dark and hollow place.  I need to make mention of how I felt when I was being active and what was I listening to...so that if I DO find myself in that dark and dismal situation, I can only help matters by pulling out that cd and try to get back to that calm, peaceful place.

So....  Morning workout:  a walk, 60 minutes.  Weather:  clear and cold.  Music:  Dirty Vegas.  Mood:  Calm and peaceful.  Note:  "...take each day as it comes."  :)